Today I’m in a funk. A yucky funk. I’ve been trying to pull myself out of it since yesterday. Maybe it’s because it’s my time of the month or because of the tension headache I’m fighting but I just feel blah.
But that’s ok, because everyone is allowed to have those days.
Not everyday is going to be perfect and happy.
Not everyday is going to be sunshine and rainbows.
You can’t have rainbows without the rain.
It might also be because everything I see is a gluten filled treat that I just want to put in my mouth. I’m having an “it’s not fair” moment as I stare at this bakery case at Barnes and Noble.
Why can’t I just eat a piece of cheesecake? I’m having a bad day and just want to eat a cookie.
Yesterday, while I was fearfully eating my Qdoba worried it would poison me, I looked out the window this lovely Krispy Kreme truck taunting me.
But this too shall pass. The moods come and they go and I think it’s just part of the process for dealing with this disease. People don’t really realize what a struggle it is to live in constant fear of being poisoned, wondering what you ate that caused your joint pain or just tired of being tired.
When I go out with friends, I just want to have a beer. Not a cider ale (even though I love it), just a good old fashion beer.
But my body says “no” and I am now listening. I feel so much better but there are still days like today when I long for the days of the past when I could carelessly eat whatever I wanted keeping my fingers crossed I didn’t have to run to the bathroom.
Today is a day to gain strength. A day to build my knowledge and education for this disease.
A day to let everyone else know it’s ok to struggle.
It’s ok to have bad days.
In the end, it’s how you use these bad days to grow, make yourself stronger and thrive in the future!